After read this quote…
I think I should make few changes in me…
So, that I have double shield…
I should not blame Allah for what I feel…
If previously, I felT soooo bad about my feelings…
I can always choose not to feel bad…
I cannot be stubborn…
Wanting something and become more selfish are the reasons for not being grateful for what I have..
I should change the way I see things…
I should not blame myself or people and especially Allah…
This is my destiny…

YES, NOW! NOW IS WHAT I HAVE TO FOCUS ON!

What happened in the past ALREADY PASSED
I can forgive people but I must forgive myself…
Life is not that bad…
I make it look bad…
I make it look miserable..
It’s my emotion…
I must have to control emotions and feelings…
I must manage my heart AND FEED IT WITH MORE happiness…
Why must feel bad when I start to fall in love..
Because I just fell not that I plan to fell…

IS IT A RISK TO LOVE? WHAT IF IT DOESN'T WORK OUT? WHAT IF IT WORK OUT?

HAHAHA YES...SOOO TRUE! I AM BAD AT CALCULATING THE RISKS! I JUST FACE THOSE RISKS

the idea of making me feel miserable is my immaturity…
i’m not a kid anymore…
but, thinking makes me find ways to change the way i react to life events…
i wanna be better…

DEAR OPTIMISTIC, PESSIMISTIC AND REALISTIC PLANS OF MINE,
WHILE ALL OF YOU ARGUING ABOUT THE ACTIONS SHOULD BE TAKEN FOR THIS PROBLEM,
I AM FACING IT,

SINCERELY,
THE OPPORTUNIST.

STAY POSITIVE!!!! YEAH!!!

because in the past, i was feeling like this too…
what if this time, i will lose the one i like?
i’m scared to feel it again…
i should not feel things like this…
i should just be normal…
i can’t fall in love..
i cannot!
it will hurt myself more…

it’s like seeing me in the past…
i should stop feeling like this…
i start to miss someone badly…
i hate this!
it makes me feel to work damn hard and work a lot…
i will do anything…. everything…
i just don’t feel to take a rest…
i want to make myself badly tired…
i hate crying…
i hate this feelings…
i feel miserable…

it hurts…
when i miss someone… it’s like having heart burnt…
OH ALLAH, IF HE’S NOT MY FUTURE HUSBAND…
PLEASE TAKE THIS FEELINGS AWAY FROM ME…
IT HURTS TO LIKE SOMEONE…

YANA IS SILLY!
good night!

EVEN IT HURTS! LOVE MAKES ME CLOSE TO ALLAH...BECAUSE ONLY ALLAH CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT I FEEL. ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL AZIM....

OH ALLAH, PLEASE, MAKES MY LIFE EASIER…
I WANT TO BECOME A SUCCESSFUL LADY…
AMEEN!

I will take everything as challenges in life…
The critiques, and negative comments… all of those are given with reasons…
life is meant for learning…

GO YANA! GO!
NEVER STOP TRYING!
I ALWAYS WANT TO DO SOMETHING BENEFICIAL FOR ME AND OTHERS..
SOMETHING COOL!
I CAN DO IT!
I JUST HAVE TO KEEP TRYING EVERYTHING!
STUDY AND EXCEL IN IT!
LOVE IS EVERYWHERE…
LOVE IS WITHIN ME…

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY (‘TRY’, BEING THE KEY WORD) TO ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .

Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins:

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer
cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have
multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients
that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after
treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the
cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable
size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a
person’s lifetime.

3. When the person’s immune system is strong the cancer
cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and
forming tumors.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has
nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic,
but also to environmental, food and lifestyle factors..

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing
diet to eat more adequately and healthy, 4-5 times/day
and by including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing
cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells
in the bone marrow, gastrointestinal tract etc, and can
cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7.. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars
and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8.. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often
reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of
chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor
destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from
chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either
compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb
to various kinds of infections and complications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to
mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy.
Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other
sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer
cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.

*CANCER CELLS FEED ON:

a. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made
with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute
would be Manuka honey or molasses, but only in very small
amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in
color Better alternative is Bragg’s aminos or sea salt.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the
gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting
off milk and substituting with unsweetened soy milk cancer
cells are being starved.

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based
diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little other meat,
like chicken. Meat also contains livestock
antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all
harmful, especially to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole
grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into
an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked
food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live
enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to
cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance
growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building
healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most
vegetables including be an sprouts) and eat some raw
vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at
temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C)..

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high
caffeine Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer
fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or
filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap
water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of
digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the
intestines becomes putrefied and leads to more toxic
buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By
refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes
to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the
body’s killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system
(IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals,
EFAs etc.) to enable the bodies own killer cells to destroy
cancer cells… Other supplements like vitamin E are known
to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body’s
normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or
unneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit.
A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior
be a survivor. Anger, un-forgiveness and bitterness put
the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to
have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy
life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated
environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to
get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen
therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer
cells.

1. No plastic containers in micro.

2. No water bottles in freezer.

3. No plastic wrap in microwave..

Johns Hopkins has recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at Walter Reed Army Medical Center as well. Dioxin chemicals cause cancer, especially breast cancer. Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don’t freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic. Recently, Dr Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at Castle Hospital , was on a TV program to explain this health hazard. He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us. He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers. This especially applies to foods that contain fat He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastics releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body. Instead, he recommends using glass, such as Corning Ware, Pyrex or ceramic containers for heating food You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc., should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn’t bad but you don’t know what is in the paper. It’s just safer to use tempered glass, Corning Ware, etc. He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper The dioxin problem is one of the reasons.
Please share this with your whole email list……………………..
Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooked in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food. Cover food with a paper towel instead.

This is an article that should be sent to anyone important in your life.

but…

to say, “im not scared” makes me wonder and think about the ratio of my confident level…
people say, “DREAM BIG!” and never compete with others but compete with myself…
competing with myself alone demands me to become optimistic in making life decision…
FEAR?
it’s sooo hard to say NO when i’m not confident enough to face my abilities and expose the ideas i have with me..
yeah… maybe, people will look down on my dreams, aims and goals in life…
the moment I start something new in my head, something which I think beneficial for me, that moment i will receive critiques and jokes about that…

and to have “MAY BE…” and “WHAT IF…” in my head..
i know i have “FEAR”…
this freaking “FEAR” puts a limit in ideas, inventions, life business, social networks, assets and more…
life is seen as it’s only in one place and my vision only can see limited access and space to achieve something which actually possible…
everything is compressed in one freaking question, ” WILL I BE ABLE TO DO THIS” rather than “I AM DOING IT”

LIMITING THINGS, ACTIVITIES, ABILITIES AND ACTIONS are the cause of delaying AMAZING MOMENTS in life…
take a deep breath…
look forward…
listen to my inner self…
believe in Qada and Qadar and destiny Allah sets for me…
devote myself to Allah..
DO IT!

insyaAllah…
i can see better life prospect…
better feelings…
better ME…

AMEEN

LIKE VS LOVE

At first, people start a relationship with friendship…
later, they move to another stage which we call relationship…
but, this relationship is something more like BFF “BEST FRIEND FOREVER”…
like two people start to say,
1. Hi, I miss you…
2. Hey, what’s up???
3. Do u miss me?
4. Are u okay? tell me what’s in your head..
5. I care about you…
6. If I wanna find a husband, I want it to be like you, because you r soo cool!
7. I am sad, tell me some story..

It always the same person where you tell your sadness and happiness..
from “like”… it moves to another stage which people call”love”
LAME RIGHT?
but even how lame it sounds, it’s something everyone or someone experiences…

overthinking again

girls don’t have idea what they really want from guys…
so, don’t ask what a girl really wants from u…
just do something that can cheer her up…
in the end, she will tell you everything u need to know..
because when a girl falls in love… she’s in pain…
i don’t know…
it’s painful and something missing inside..
if im that girl, all i do is praying to Allah to make me calm and relax because i’m clumsy and kiddo…

love again? lame..

real man love the girl who make his world the most beautiful

It’s weird, how to make someone’s world the most beautiful?
How to justify this?
Very subjective right?
I think the first time I meet someone, I have no idea that this someone can be sooo important to my life!
and even when I am sooo confident that someone can be my husband, I don’t have idea that this someone becomes a stranger after long time…
It confuses me.. but Allah tells me that Marriage, Destiny, Life and Death are all in His Hand… They are remained secret no matter how… That’s why we must always hope and believe that one fine day… everything will be clear…and ALLAH ALWAYS KNOWS THE BEST FOR US!

do what u love, love what you do

Sometimes, love hurts!
but Most of the time, love cheers!
All i can tell myself is this:

IF LOVE IS STRONG ENOUGH TO BRING ME DOWN AND SHED MY TEARS,
I WILL SHOW TO LOVE THAT I AM STRONG ENOUGH TO GET UP!
ALL HAPPINESS COMES FROM DARING TO BEGIN!
FIGHTING!!!!
THIS IS WAR OF LOVE!
I LOVE ALLAH MORE THAN EVERYTHING!
ALLAH, PLEASE GUIDE ME…

i love this quote from lindsay;

HEHEHEHE TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT..
BY THE WAY..
I MISS ….

NITEY READERS *wink wink

wedges

i love them

leopard

wave....

after a long time…
i bought new shoes…
yeayyy!!!
guess what, this shoes will give me confidence especially when i walk and stand…
i know i fake my height
but, I FEEL CONFIDENT…
if I wear this shoes, i will bring extra slipper in my bag… hehehe…
just in case if my feet hurts.. lol..

yeayyyy!!!